Bad, bad girl!

Well, I snacked on chocolate and other naughties yesterday again. I thought having a bit might stop my cravings but it just gave me an excuse to me naughty so I think that cutting it out is the right thing to do. I weight 10 stone 0.2 pounds this morning which was a shock to the system although not a surprise. It has made me feel inspired to do something and so I started off well this morning - making myself a snack box of fruit and veg when I made the lunch boxes this morning. I ate it and was hungry so had a banana and I have had a balanced lunch and am happy so far. I always want something sweet after my main meal so have decided to go back to having a fat free yoghurt with sweetener in as it fills me up, stops me wanting something sweet and is reasonably healthy. I think that I do need to try to do something about my sweet tooth but it needs to be a slower approach as just cutting out sweetener and chocolate just made me eat other things instead. I will try to stay off the chocolate though as I know the fats are very unhealthy.

Yesterdays News

I decided to buy chocolate and just eat whatever I wanted yesterday. Surprisingly my weight was down a little at 9 stone 13.2 pounds. I am hoping that I can now get back on track with being healthy again. I have decided that I was to be below 9.5 stone when my relatives visit after Easter. I know that there will be likely to be temptations around at Easter as I love hot cross buns and of course there is all the chocolate as well. Therefore I know I need to work hard now, well in advance to get my weight well below so that I can not only get in to a good eating habit but also to get my weight extra low so I can afford to put on a few pounds. I have some trousers I want to fit in to as well so that is additional motivation for me.

Not Good....

This morning my weight had gone up to 9 stone 13.4 pounds even though I didn't think I had eaten that badly yesterday. I decided that I would give in to my craving and have some chocolate today, which I really enjoyed this morning. I need to get back some motivation for healthy eating and it is not coming yet....

Cravings

I am craving chocolate so much at the moment. I even searched the fridge for my husbands with intent to steal it but he had already eaten it! I am not sure whether I should just have some as I wonder if I am overeating because I want to replace it with something else. If I have chocolate it may just help me to not eat so much. However, it may just give mean excuse for eating badly for the rest of the day and I may start buying it a lot again. I am unsure what to do.....

Tuesday report

I don't know what happened yesterday but I was just hungry in the evening I ate loads. I therefore found my weight to be 9 stone 12.8 pounds this morning which was not good. Hopefully I can settle down a bit today and fill up on healthy foods rather than rubbish.

Monday Update

I had a week off with the boys for half term and we just ate everything in sight I think! My weight has gone up to 9 stone 12.8 pounds and I am surprised it isn't more! I have still managed to avoid chocolate and sweeteners though, which is good and am back on track with things today so in a very positive frame of mind.

Wednesday....

Well so far so good. On Tuesday my weight was down a bit to 9 stone 12 pounds and today down a lot to 9 stone 11 pounds. I did run around playing 'tag' with the children in the playground after school and did not have such low blood sugar as the day before, which I am sure helped. The best news is, that I have avoided the chocolate and sweeteners and have not even been tempted by them. I am very proud of myself and have been making sure that I have other tasty treats in, such as natural yoghurt and fruit and plenty of nice vegetables. I just hope I can keep being strong, especially as I heading towards that PMT time!

Monday update

It has been a while since I posted. I have been busy and had a bad week, eating wise. I kept craving things and eating too much and my weight is up to 9 stone 12.4 pounds. I have decided that I really must not give in to my cravings and try to reduce my sweet tooth. I have therefore decided to have no sweeteners this week and to keep telling myself how unhealthy they are and how I do not need them. I am hoping that if I steer clear of them for long enough I will not keep wanting to eat them. This worked for crisps - I stopped eating them for a few months and then no longer really wanted them. I have maybe one packet a month or less and am very happy with that. I would be really happy if I could have this sort of relationship with chocolate as well so I am trying the same technique. I think perhaps that once my brain knows I can survive without it, I will not crave it so much and also i have to keep telling my brain how unhealthy it is.

Monday news

My weight was up a bit and higher than last week at 9 stone 10.6 pounds this morning. I was comfort eating a bit last night and again this morning so it is likely to be up again tomorrow. I must try to find something else to comfort me but I have not found anything yet.